“Yes, there’s a good boy. I can easily slide in the fifth dildo now.”
“Nnー!! Nhh, fu…fu, fuuu…!!”
“It seems that you’re relaxed now. It got soft down there pretty quickly.”
“Nnh! Uh, n…, fu, uuh…!”
“Now then, let’s put in the last dildo for tonight.”
As he said that, His Highness pulled out the dildo which was spreading my insides, making a slippery sound. The mysterious sensation, similar to the feeling of excretion I felt on the first day, got stronger and stronger, and when the dildo went through my entrance, it made my hips tremble.
It was mortifying that I couldn’t do anything about it. No matter how much I endured, my body wouldn’t listen to me.
“Let’s add some more lubricant just in case.”
Since I started taking the third dildo, a sweet-smelling substance called a lubricant was always poured into my body in between thrusts.
I was sure he was doing this so it wouldn’t be painful for me, and I was happy that His Highness paid attention to this, but… in a place like that, having His Highness’s finger spread me and insert a cold spout was an action which I could never get used to.
And while it was being poured, His Highness would look intently at it. When the substance sometimes spilled, he would say, “Ah, it’s dripping down.” Also, I just couldn’t get used to his finger stroking me there while the spout was still inserted. During those times, he would sometimes touch my testicles, which sparked a weird feeling in me, making my hips tremble even more.
Oh, how shallow of me…!
For me, who knew nothing and couldn’t do anything alone, His Highness was going out of his way to teach me various things…
“Now, with this, you shouldn’t feel that much pain…right, relax…that’s right, good boy, I’ll put it in like this, slowly.”
At the same time His Highness spoke, I experienced a feeling of hardness that I had never felt before, causing me to almost unconsciously let my voice out. After that, it was pushed deeper bit by bit, repeatedly going in and out and even deeper.
It was true that I didn’t feel any pain, but the feeling of the dildo’s hardness was intense. Without realizing it, I tensed up my lower body, stopping the dildo from entering and exiting. In addition, it made an obscene squelching sound as some lubricant spilled out around it.
“Ah, I’m…, sorr…yyy…”
“It’s alright, you don’t have to apologize. Getting tensed up in the middle isn’t a bad thing…Fufu, it’s like I’m seeing my own thing being sucked in.”
His Highness slightly chuckled, once again pushing the dildo inside me. Without thinking, a sound of “Ihh!” escaped my lips, causing me to hurriedly bite my pillow.
“That’s it, that’s very good…yes, it’s all the way in. Besides, it seems that it is moving well inside…I can’t wait for tomorrow.”
His Highness looked like he was having fun while talking, but I couldn’t hear him over the squelching noises the dildo made as it pumped in and out of me.
Then he kept on moving the biggest dildo, rubbing my insides so many times that before I knew it I was feeling tingly, before pushing it deeper inside than it ever had gone before. With each pump in and out, I felt an immeasurable feeling of pressure and discomfort.
I didn’t know if it was because I felt scared that I tried to escape, but without thinking I moved my hips, and when the biggest dildo finally came out, I collapsed while letting out a small scream.
It had been seven days since the wedding ceremony.
When nobility and royalty got married, it was expected for them to go on a honeymoon to spend a long time together and get to know each other. It was supposed to last approximately seven to ten days, during which they were allowed to take a break, regardless of their status. That was why even His Highness Willacliff, who was the crown prince, could take a break, most of which he spent it in the room that I stayed in.
Meanwhile, I wasn’t sure if it was because His Highness would carry me from the bed to the chair, from the chair to the sofa, and so forth, but Kilt laughed and said, “As expected from newlyweds.” I felt really embarrassed thinking about it. It was true that I wouldn’t be able to walk by myself during that time, so I was thankful for His Highness’s assistance.
His Highness will do this every night…
After our wedding night, every night, His Highness would use the dildos on me until midnight. Because of that, my physical strength, which was already lacking, seemed to be drained entirely, and my legs couldn’t help but tremble when I walked.
When His Highness asked me if he could help me take a bath, I politely refused, but it made me a little worried that he might eventually get rid of Kilt and enter the bathhouse himself. Even if I was his companion, it was embarrassing and uncomfortable to have the Crown Prince assist me while taking a bath, and I thought that I would be so worked up that I wouldn’t be able to calm down.
I pushed His Highness to stop him from joining me while bathing once again. “That’s a shame,” he replied before leaving. I wasn’t sure if he was serious or was just joking, but he returned to his own room to take a bath.
Kilt, who witnessed this scene, grinned and told me, “You are much loved.”
“Did you get used to the dildos?”
“Ah, yeah, I think…”
“Even the last one?”
“Is that so~ then how about we prepare for tonight more carefully?”
This kind of subject was embarrassing to talk about, but I managed to answer Kilt’s questions because he never teased me about it and talked about it in a very normal way. Moreover, it was difficult to prepare myself on my own. Since I was still a beginner, Kilt was assisting me, so it was easier for him to know various things about it.
“I checked with my older brother. I think His Highness will be able to reach pretty deep, so I think it’ll be better if we wash inside until you’re at your limit.”
“At my limit…”
“If you were able to do it until the last dildo, then it’ll be alright~”
The words that Kilt said weren’t wrong, but to have the tool be inserted in that position so hurriedly made the feeling of confusion stronger than embarrassment. It tired me out, resulting in a rather uncomfortable bathtime.
After that, Mary Anne took care of my whole body as usual while I took a sip of tea to calm myself down before His Highness arrived.
Lately, Kilt has been telling me that I should not drink too much or else it would be hard for me after, but I only realized that when the first dildo entered me.
Because that thing would be entering a place like that, it would definitely rub my insides in a lot of places. I couldn’t possibly be obscene in front of His Highness, so I had to avoid drinking too much.
As I was thinking about this, the door opened with a click and His Highness, dressed in his nightwear, entered my room.
“Oh my, you’re calmer than I imagined.”
“…That’s not true.”
“Ah, Your cheeks are a little flushed. You will always be adorable, Runa.”
“Then, we shall go to bed… Tonight, I’ll make all of Runa mine, alright?”
As expected, the words he whispered while hugging me from the side made my whole body tremble.
After a shamefully lewd sound, I felt His Highness’s fingers slipping out.
His Highness said, “We won’t be using a dildo tonight. I want you to only feel me,” before putting his lubricated fingers inside me and pumping it in and out like he did with the dildos. I was pushed and rubbed in that place, all while feeling a tingling sensation many times. Even though his fingers were thinner than the dildos, just thinking that they were His Highness’s fingers made my insides strangely tense.
“You don’t have to take it in…yet,” he said, laughing.
Then, after being rubbed with his fingers for a while, he poured a little lubricant, saying, “Now relax,” and I felt something hot enter my body.
“It’s alright, it entered perfectly.”
I felt a strong sense of pressure after being spread out, and my voice leaked out when I felt it thrust.
This feeling was different from the dildo. It was hot, and I could feel an intense throbbing sensation build inside me bit by bit.
“Exhale.” When I heard this, I desperately sucked in breaths through my mouth. I felt like I was drowning; I couldn’t breathe from my nose.
“Fwahh, uu, uh…hh—”
“It’ll be alright…that’s it. Good boy.”
“Uu, ahh…Uh, fwaa, aa…”
“…Mn, fuu, I think–I think I was able to enter quite a bit.”
There was something hot stroking my waist…was this, His Highness’s hand? It continued to stroke my waist before moving to my stomach. He rubbed around my navel and then his hand slowly travelled down from my navel, as if to check something.
“Fufu, it seems like your adorable thing here is also delighted, Runa.”
I suddenly felt something hot in an outrageous place, and unconsciously I thrust my hips forwards. It was a dirty place, and yet His Highness’s hand stroked and held it…!
“Actually, if it was the dildo you could make love to it easily, but I didn’t really like it. I want me to be the one to feel everything about Runa.”
“It seems like I made you cooperate with my selfish desires.” These words were whispered in my ear by His Highness as I was in this confused state.
Most of my five senses were gathered in the part that His Highness was touching. Every time I was stroked up and down, my lower abdomen trembled, and it made me feel an intense tightening in the place where I felt tremendous oppression.
It felt close to masturbation, though my experience was limited at best—no, everytime his hands moved, I felt a stronger sensation than masturbation. Because of that, I tightly clamped down on the thing inside me that was thicker and hotter than the dildos. Even though I was struggling because of that, His Highness wouldn’t stop stroking, and this intense tightening grew even stronger.
“N.n…, aah, n…!, no, aau!, mph…!, sto..p!”
“You’ll be alright, don’t be scared. …the insides are starting to swell. Just let it happen… Yes, that’s a good boy.”
“N,aah…!! Hand, let go, st, sto, stop…,a, ahh…!!”
“It’s not scary…, yes, see, let’s give love to the other one too. It’s sensitive here, so it should feel really nice.”
“No ahh…! I, I don–, let go, there, no aaah…”
“It’s alright…see, it’s almost time. Even your testicles are tensing up…, fuu, your insides are also looking amazing.”
“Ss, stop , don’t touch, it…!ha, hiaa!, no, don’t rub, n, no, oo…!”
“…It’s alright, you can come.”
Hearing “You can come,” being whispered in my ears made my body shiver surprisingly, and suddenly, there was an incredibly intense flickering in my eyes and my hips trembled.
I could hear my heart pumping in my ears, and my hips started to shake. That dirty place was held in His Highness’s hand, and I thought I heard a faint squishing sound.
At the end, my hips buckled, making my thighs quiver, and my knees slumped down. At the moment, the pressure that had built in the pit of my stomach released and I felt a thrilling sensation that made me scream out.
Both of my hands lost their strength, and I weakly collapsed onto the bed.
“…Runa’s body fluid is so sweet.”
I felt like I heard His Highness’s voice indistinctly in my head.
I tried to reply to him, but I was light-headed. I couldn’t move even one finger, let alone my body.
“Then, let’s continue.”
I heard His Highness’s voice near my ear once again, and at the same time, something soft and warm touched my earlobe. When I wondered whether it was His Highness’s lips, I felt something hot stroke beneath my waist.
Aah, that’s definitely His Highness’s hand, I vaguely thought, and when I could finally open my eyes suddenly—
I felt a strong sense of pressure in me once again, and I let out an inarticulate cry. A thick, hot and hard object spread my insides once more, making squelching and smacking noises.
“…fuu, it seems like it will go in much deeper than earlier.”
“Fu, uhh…, fu, fuuh…”
“Runa you’re so good at remembering things, even for things like this… Aah, don’t cry. I’m not trying to tease you.”
His Highness stroked my head, and I shifted my face slightly off the pillow. Then, he gently stroked my eyes, and his gentle touch made my body relax.
“I want to quickly make Runa my own. I feel so happy that I can finally have you in my embrace that I can’t seem to suppress my excitement. Runa, my dear Runa…”
His Highness’s voice seemed to be elated, but somehow it also sounded like he was crying.
I wondered why…
I wanted to make sure, but I couldn’t see His Highness’s face while I was lying down. The weight of His Highness was on my lower body, and he was inside me, making it hard for me to look at him.
“Then, let’s make every inch of you mine.”
The feeling of pressure deepened. Jolting several times, rubbing it in and out, opening the deepest part, and the feeling of pressure went deeper and deeper.
It felt ridiculously painful, but for some reasons I felt the same trembling in my lower back, making me feel scared. My eyelids started to tremble, and without realizing it my voice started leaking out again.
“Hii, a, aau, u, fu, uhh…!”
“Yes, just stay like that… Ahh, your insides feel very nice, Runa…”
“Runa, my Runa…, finally. How long it was…but with this, Runa is mine. From today onwards, you are mine.”
“Fwa, aa…! No more, no aa…!!”
“I won’t hand you to anyone, I won’t let anyone touch you but me. Runa—Ernis, Ernis who is mine and only mine…”
As that feeling of pressure tightened even more, I was struck by a sensation I had never felt before. It felt like a large amount of lubricant was being poured into me, and it felt like it was being rubbed against my insides.
As I felt that hot thing continuously spreading me as it pushed deeper, my vision flickered as my consciousness began to fade.
“I’m really sorry, I never imagined that my eldest sister, who had just arrived, would be so lively.”
“No, I’m fine. Besides, I was able to hear a lot about my mother.”
“Thank you, Runa. Jeez, I thought that the groom would be the one to carry the bride on the day of the wedding. And I was so excited about it too.”
His Highness Willacliff’s words made my heart skip a beat.
That was right. Tonight would be our first night as a married couple. On the sofa where I usually read a book before I slept sat not only me, but His Highness as well, both of us having just finished bathing and donning our night wear. I would be sharing my bed, which I usually slept alone in, with His Highness tonight.
That meant it would naturally lead to that, if I wasn’t mistaken. I had been prepared in advance, but when I thought about doing it, I felt like an adventurer stepping foot into unknown territory.
Before I got engaged with His Highness Willacliff, I was already taking the education for the crown consort, but I found out that sex education wasn’t included in my lessons only after I became the crown consort.
It was only natural to be given that kind of education; even I knew that. Nevertheless, I didn’t hear anything from Professor Reedbell, let alone from Mary Anne.
It wasn’t like I wanted to know about it. It’s just that it made me nervous just thinking about what would happen if His Highness felt irked or discontented. It made me nervous that I had to do something that I hadn’t learned, prior to the actual day that I needed to do it. I wanted to avoid it as much as possible.
That was why I relied on Kilt on that matter. Kilt seemed like the type to be alright answering questions about these types of things, and as the crown consort, the only person who I could think of who I’d able to have this conversation with was him. As such, it was best to consult with Kilt, who’s husband was a guard, but when I first moved to the palace, I didn’t know that Kilt was married to someone of the same sex. I remembered him being quite troubled when I asked.
And even if I wanted to know about it for myself, it felt really embarrassing to be the one to ask. It took quite a while to work up the courage to ask. Because of that, it was only at the last minute that I was finally able to ask about it, seven days before the wedding.
“Ahh, that’s because His Highness ordered for you to not have any sexual education.”
“That’s like hands on training. His Highness would never forgive anyone who touched Sir Ernis’ s skin.”
“Because of that, I’m the only one helping out during your bathing, but from now on, I will continue to take good care of you!” Kilt said as he tapped his chest.
Was that it? So the lessons for the marital act were like that. I didn’t know what I needed to do, but if it was related to being touched and showing my skin, then I wasn’t confident that I would be able to do it.
“In any case, it’s always better for the receiver to prepare beforehand.”
“Oh, I get it. It seems like you haven’t been informed about that. What should we do about this?”
Kilt looked unusually troubled. Perhaps there was a very important preparation that needed to be done. That meant that I, who didn’t know that level of information, might not turn out to be a good partner for His Highness.
Ah, this wasn’t good. Just thinking about various things was making me feel more anxious.
“I’ll inform His Highness about this, alright? Yes, it’s alright, this type of subject is very delicate, so I’ll explain it the best that I can.”
Kilt, who laughed wholeheartedly, seemed to have successfully persuaded His Highness, as the next evening, before he drew the bath he brought an important tool that was unfamiliar to me.
“To put it simply, it is a tool that can clean your insides.”
“…Maybe you weren’t informed about that either?”
“Ahh! No, I think that it’s only natural for Sir Ernis not to know! Hmm, yes, it’s alright, I will teach you about that as well.”
After that, the subject that I learned from Kilt was an unfamiliar action that was completely outside of my expectations. It was hard to imagine even when described. In the first place, seeing how little I knew about even the things that men and women do, there was no way that I would know how it happened between men.
Nevertheless, it was better to learn in advance than to not know anything at all. That was what I thought, at least, but I was told that His Highness himself would be the one to teach me about it in more detail, so eventually Kilt just instructed me on the things that I needed to do for the advance preparation.
There was a big difference between listening and actually doing it, and the day I tried to prepare for the first time, I wasn’t able to finish completely.
Surely, that kind of thing being plugged in, and something thicker than water being put in a place like that…I couldn’t do it. A mixture of fear and embarrassment made my body tremble at just the thought of it.
Nevertheless, if I was told that I wouldn’t be able to proceed to the next step if I didn’t finish then, all I could do was prepare myself.
I really thought that Kilt was able to patiently teach me what I needed to know, even if I was about to cry from embarrassment. When I managed to take a certain amount of the cleaning, I was told, “This is usually something maids are supposed to do.” Hearing that made me feel overwhelmed.
For a woman to be the one that was supposed to help me out with this…I wouldn’t be able to endure such a thing in my lifetime. I’m so glad to have Kilt with me, was what I thought during that time.
“Runa, that face you’re making, does that mean that you’re nervous?”
His Highness’s voice brought me back to reality. Oh no, I just remembered that the advance preparations were about to begin. It would be tonight while bathing; I could tell from how everything was carefully prepared more than usual.
“Ah, I didn’t say it to tease you. Runa is just so adorable that I just can’t help it.”
His Highness touched my cheek, but it felt a little hotter than usual. I glanced at him thinking that maybe he too felt nervous, but what greeted me was…his strongly glowing green eyes that I had never seen so bright before.
“It is finally that day. Dear Runa, let us have a wonderful honeymoon tonight.”
His Highness’s voice felt a little warmer than usual, and my body that felt it started to tremble a little.
Even though I asked Kilt about it beforehand, as I thought, there was a huge difference from actually experiencing it. In the first place, even though I was His Highness’ partner, I still felt a great sense of resistance being seen down there.
And it wasn’t only being seen. Who would’ve thought that I would be touched by His Highness’s fingers…
On top of that, his fingers gently stroked and rubbed me. Moreover, when I realized that his fingers started entering inside, all I could do was bury my face in the pillow and endure the embarrassment I felt.
After all of that, I honestly didn’t know what was going on. After the first finger, it already seemed like I had reached the limit of my embarrassment. I was shown a dildo, but my head was already feeling a bit fuzzy, making it hard to understand what was going on.
“Runa, don’t be scared. I won’t harm you.”
“That’s it, relax…Good boy, the second dildo was able to enter smoothly.”
While he spoke to me, that hard thing was entering and exiting. I bit my lip as I felt it rubbing inside me.
There were six types of dildos that were shown to His Highness, some as thick as a finger and some so thick that they were scary. They were put in order from the thinnest first so that I could get used to it. I’m sure this was what Kilt was telling me.
…It’s true that I can’t have just anyone do this, absolutely impossible….
Because my partner was His Highness, it was barely bearable, but that didn’t make it any less mortifying. My fingers still clenching the sheets, I desperately clamped my lips together to not let out any weird voices.
In the first place, this position was already shameful, lying down and sticking out your hips. What’s more, showing His Highness something like this while spreading my legs wide…if His Highness didn’t tell me that this would be the most comfortable position, then there was no doubt that I might’ve ran away from embarrassment.
…No, this was much better than lying on your back where your face would be seen.
“Then, I’ll move it a little.”
A substance that felt a little cold flowed down between my buttocks, making my voice leak out unintentionally.
The slimy liquid that was used during the preparation was different from the one being used now, which had a sweet scent to it. I was told that this substance would help with any pain I felt.
It did seem like the friction was reduced, but I couldn’t help but hear the wet noises it produced every time the dildo moved.
“Uuh…, fuuh…, fuu…hh—”
“Yes, just like that…ah, it looks like it’s getting softer.”
“Let’s try putting it a little deeper.”
As I heard more squishing noises, the feeling of pressure inside me increased. Without thinking, I tensed up, but His Highness gently stroked me on the hips, and with his help I was able to slowly relax. His Highness also taught me that at first it was always better to relax and avoid tensing up.
“…Alright, let’s stop here for tonight. It would be hard to get used to it so suddenly.”
Ahh…I could tell that the object was slowly being pulled out. I could feel it as it slowly rubbed my insides, as if it were encouraging me to excrete…
Finally, when the dildo came out, it made another squelching sound, and a chilling, mysterious sensation numbed my spine.
“It’s alright, it’s a little red there but there’s no wound.”
His fingers stroked such an outrageous place inside of me once again, and without realizing it, I let out my voice. It came out louder than I expected, and I hurriedly pressed my mouth against my pillow.
“Fufu, there’s no need to be embarrassed. Rather, it’s a lovely voice, so I’d like to hear more.”
What was he saying while stroking me there…!
I didn’t want to let out such a shameful voice, so to tell him the feeling of not wanting to be touched in such a place anymore, I shook my head many times and buried my face in the pillow.
“This is just the beginning. I’m looking forward to what’s to come.”
When I heard His Highness’s happy yet wicked voice, I was too distracted to respond and just let it slide.
Apologies for the delay on this chapter. Unfortuantely, some irl stuff got in the way. Anyway, more to come.
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“I’m not someone that will stand in front of people, Your Highness, so what I’m saying is that this kind of room is excessive.”
“Hmm, I’m troubled. Runa is my only companion, and this room is not that luxurious for someone of the royal family anyways.”
It was decided that I would move to the prince’s residence in the royal palace. “This will be Runa’s room,” His Highness had said. I was stunned by the luxurious room that I was guided to. It was filled with beautiful furniture that even someone like me knew was expensive. What surprised me the most, however, was that this was the Queen’s Room.
I was one of the crown consorts, certainly, but I would not be the primary or only partner of the crown prince. There was a room for secondary consorts,, and supposedly you could isolate yourself in that room quite easily. Being a man, I didn’t think I could face other consorts, so I thought that I would stay in a room like that.
Having said that, I didn’t imagine that they would guide me to the Queen’s Room…
“Even though it has already been a month since our engagement ceremony, you still can’t seem to get used to being Crown Consort, Runa. Well, that side of you is also adorable.”
“…Your Highness, um, can you not say something like that?”
“Why? Aren’t I just telling the truth?”
While His Highness was saying that, his slender fingers stroked my cheek.
If it were just the two of us back home in my mansion, then I would be able to stand it, but this was the royal palace. There were two guards watching over His Highness nearby, and there were also a few maids that were quietly preparing tea and opening the windows.
In a place like this, with so many eyes watching….
By officially becoming His Highness’s fiancé, it was expected that I would be prepared for this kind of environment. Even if something unpredictable were to happen, I thought to myself to always try to stay calm. If it was something that even someone like me could do, I was determined to do it.
Still, I couldn’t get used to these kinds of embarrassing words and actions.
I had never had such feelings with my former fiancé, His Highness Hartward, and I always wondered what to do as a fiancé at a time like this.
In the first place, His Highness Hartward never touched me like this.
His Highness Hartward and I had never held hands, not even once. However, ever since my engagement ceremony, His Highness Willacliff touching me became a frequent thing; on my head and cheeks, the back of my hand; and recently my shoulders and back, which made me nervous each time.
There were a lot of times that he would say that I was ‘adorable’ and ‘a good kid’, and the feelings of shame those words evoked only grew bigger.
I’ve never felt this embarrassed before…
My father seemed to realize that there had been a change in my heart.
I noticed that my father’s gaze, which had been slightly worried, changed quite gently. As it was the same look he had from when my mother was still alive and well, even our butler Gilberton seemed happy about it.
I remembered my father’s smiling face when I was able to move to the prince’s residence, as he said, “Now I can finally rest.” I felt a little lonely but also experienced a great sense of relief.
“I’ll say it time and time again. My only partner is Runa. If you don’t stay in this room, then won’t it just sit unused?”
“Besides, unlike Hart, I won’t have a change of heart. My Queen’s Room will forever belong to you and only you.”
“Um, I’m already fine with His Highness Hartward. It wasn’t His Highness’s fault, I think it was mine for being a boring person.”
His Highness Willacliff, who was sitting across from me, let out a big sigh.
“You aren’t boring at all. You’re the only one that can talk to me this much, and I’ve never seen anyone else this beautiful yet so humble and hardworking. And on top of you being so adorable, aren’t I completely entranced by Runa?”
“…Your Highness, like I said, please don’t say things like that. There are people around us.”
“Why? Aren’t I just praising my companion?”
His Highness smiled as though he had successfully teased me. It seemed that he was making fun of me. Surprisingly, His Highness was rather mischievous, as I only got to know after our engagement ceremony.
“It’s true that I won’t change my mind. From now on, my only companion is you.”
If His Highness were to say these things to anyone else, there was no doubt that any noble’s daughter would be happy. That being said, when it came to me, there was a small bud of doubt somewhere in my heart.
That’s because His Highness Hartward and I saw each other again earlier…no, that wasn’t it.
I didn’t have any special feelings towards His Highness Hartward, even before the annulment of our engagement. Even so, I felt my chest tighten. Maybe it was because there was a princess by his side.
The princess, who wore a dress that was slightly loose on the belly, was pretty in the way that fresh-faced young girls were. She had an expressive face and manner of speech, and she was the exact opposite of me.
No…that isn’t it either.
There was a feeling of intimacy between His Highness Hartward and the princess, but I didn’t feel jealous. However, the expression that the princess made when she looked at His Highness Willacliff made me nervous.
It looks like she wants to say something.
I didn’t know if it was because I hadn’t been close to anyone outside my family, but I was quite insensitive to the subtleties of human emotions. Yet, even I noticed the expression that the princess wore.
…I wonder if she is an acquaintance of His Highness.
If she was a princess that was going to be married to His Highness Hartward, then His Highness Willacliff probably knew her. His Highness Willacliff wore the same face as always, but the princess, on the other hand, kept on glancing at him.
“Are you tired?”
“Your face shows that your mind is not here right now…as expected, it seems like meeting Hart was a bad idea. I didn’t put too much thought into it when you said that you didn’t mind. I should’ve thought about it thoroughly. I’m sorry.”
“Your Highness, please don’t apologize to me. Your Highness is the Crown Prince, so …”
“You are my fiancé. It’s only natural to apologize when something unpleasant occurs, and it’s only natural to be worried about my companion.”
“Moreover, this will be your home starting from today. I want my companion to live comfortably here. If you have any worries, please tell Mary Anne.”
The maid behind His Highness promptly bowed her head. His Highness continued, “Mary Anne is an excellent maid, so she should be able to do most of the things you ask of her.”
That was right. Starting today I would be living in His Highness’s palace. It wouldn’t do for the crown prince’s fiancé, who was about to get married, to live in a small mansion in the city forever. It would look bad in the eyes of other people. My father was really worried because of that, which pushed me to move, hopefully ending any rumors before they began.
“My name is Mary Anne, Crown Consort.”
“Um, I’ll be in your care.”
Crown Consort…it was true that I would be called that from now on, but as expected, there was a resistance by being called like that as a man. I supposed I would try to ask her to call me by my name.
I wasn’t satisfied by the greetings I gave out of nervousness, not being used to this environment, but Mary Anne, who was thirty years my elder, only gave me a smile.
In the morning, Mary Anne woke me up and I had breakfast in my room. That day, I had a lesson with Professor Reedbell, and after that, the wife of the tailor came. In my free time, I spent my time reading books. As a part of the royal family, there were supposed to be certain responsibilities for me to fulfill, but perhaps because of His Highness, I was told that such a role would not be necessary until after the wedding ceremony.
Perhaps, in my current state, I was useless… I needed to study more. At the very least, I was determined to be useful behind the scenes.
And today, I spent my time as if I were in my own mansion. A young man named Kilt, an apprentice chamberlain, would be helping out with the evening bathing. As expected, it would be embarrassing if I were seen by a woman like Mary Anne, so I was grateful for Kilt’s assistance.
It seemed that Kilt, who was two years older than me, came from a knight’s family. He told me that he had two older brothers who were His Highness Willacliff’s guards. Apparently, the eldest brother would be reassigned soon, but the second eldest would remain as a guard of His Highness. It was possible that I might meet him someday.
There were a few other handmaidens and servants around, but I hadn’t talked to anyone yet besides Mary Anne and Kilt. That didn’t mean that I felt lonely though, since they always prepared things for me whenever I was in the room. For someone like me, who wasn’t very good at interacting with people, this was more than enough consideration.
I’m sure that His Highness was the one behind that.
I wondered how kind a person could be. I lifted my gaze from my book as I was thinking that, and at that moment, I heard a knocking on the door before Kilt entered the room.
In Kilt’s hand sat a beautifully patterned box. While I was thinking to myself that the color of the box was fitting for a lady, Kilt interrupted my thoughts, saying, “This is from Her Imperial Highness Princess Beata-” Strangely, he clamped his mouth shut.
I hadn’t seen Miss Beata, who was His Highness Hartward’s companion, after our greetings when I first arrived here.
“That’s from Miss Beata?”
I had received various things from His Highness’s mother, the queen, but this was the first time I had received anything from Miss Beata.
His Highness Willacliff had told me, “Can you consider it as one of your responsibilities to receive the gifts that are from my mother?” Even though there was a slight fear in that thought, I always received her gifts with gratitude. It seemed like the Queen loved my mother very much, so she felt a sense of familiarity with the me who resembled my mother. She even burst into tears when we first met. At that time, I was greatly troubled because I didn’t know what to do.
His Highness had also warned me, saying, “You’re not allowed to receive any gifts from Hart. Even if we are brothers, we are still of royal blood, and it would be troublesome if bad rumours were to spread.” I didn’t mind it, but it was His Highness Hartward who annulled the engagement, so I didn’t think that he would send any gifts.
It seemed that I was correct, seeing how I hadn’t received any gifts from His Highness Hartward yet.
I wonder what I should do with Miss Beata’s gift.
I hadn’t heard anything from His Highness yet, so I decided to wait until I heard from him before deciding what to do next. While waiting, I saw that Mary Anne had returned.
“Kilt, who is that from?”
“This is from Her Imperial Highness Princess Beata…”
It felt like Mary Anne’s eyes hardened as she heard Kilt’s reply.
“Please leave this one to me.”
“Of course. Ah, please excuse me.”
Kilt apologized to Mary Anne, whose voice had been unusually stern.
“Mary Anne, that’s-”
“Sir Ernis, please do not mind it. I will visit His Highness later.”
“Ah, that’s fine and all, but…I’m wondering if Miss Beata said something…”
“No, milord, I haven’t heard anything.”
I wonder… I think something happened.
I had changed. It was to the point that, if he saw me, my father would cry tears of joy and say “Even that Runa who wasn’t interested in his surroundings!” I had also started to care about my surroundings.
That’s why I knew that there was a slight difference from how Mary Anne and Kilt usually acted. I thought that it had to do with the gift that Miss Beata sent.
“If you have something to say, please don’t hide it and let me know.”
“It is nothing.”
“That’s right, everyone who lives in the palace who knows Sir Ernis loves him! And, His Highness Willacliff is only that kind of person with Sir Ernis, everyone knows about it. Well, maybe that’s why Her Imperial Highness Princess Beata is worried…”
“Ah…ehem, this–I’ll bring this over there.”
Kilt left the room after saying that. Mary Anne, who was able to stop Kilt from talking, had the same unchanging expression as usual. I couldn’t help but think that they were hiding something from me.
I couldn’t help but be curious, so I decided that after dinner that I would tell His Highness about the gift that Miss Beata gave me.
“I’ve heard from Mary Anne. It seems that the contents were sweets that are popular among young girls, but you aren’t so good with sweets, are you? I thanked Miss Beata on your behalf, so you don’t have to worry about it anymore.”
“Is that so. Then, those sweets…”
When asked about the whereabouts of the sweets, His Highness just smiled softly.
“Runa, from now on the only gift that you’re allowed to receive is the gift that my mother gives. You won’t accept gifts from Miss Beata, and of course, from Hart. That includes other nobility as well, alright? If you receive a gift from someone so easily, it might lead to unnecessary misunderstandings and political disputes.”
I was also taught by Professor Reedbell that as Crown Consort, I needed to be careful about that.
To be honest, I wasn’t sure what to do with the gifts that I received…
I was a little worried that I might be bothering His Highness who was busy.
The fact that his first consort was a man must have caused His Highness to suffer and worry. Also, I’d been worried about Miss Beata since the first time I met her.
“Your Highness, there’s something that I want to ask of you.”
“Yes? What is it?”
“Have you been acquainted with Miss Beata for a long time?”
“Ah, I heard that Kilt accidentally said something unnecessary.”
“No, since the first time I met Miss Beata she was looking at Your Highness, so I thought that you two knew each other before.”
“You…you have gotten better at reading people. I think that it is a good thing, but don’t overdo yourself, alright?”
When I saw His Highness’s furrowed brows, I understood that he was worried about me. I won’t get tired from this much…, I thought, but when he stroked my head it made my chest feel warm.
“Well, there’s no point in hiding it now. It wouldn’t be good if you heard it from someone else and misunderstood.”
“You see, Miss Beata was one of my princess candidates.”
I was surprised to hear the words “princess candidate”. His Highness being the crown prince, it wasn’t a surprise that he had some princess candidates, so I wondered why I felt so surprised…
“Even if you say princess candidate, it was only decided by how the circumstances were. I didn’t like the idea that was surrounding it, so at an early stage I told my father that I wanted to be the one to choose my marriage partner. That’s why, even if they were called candidates, I didn’t think of them as such. And when I was twelve, I had already applied to be Runa’s marriage partner.”
“Your Highness, that story is already…”
“Hehe, and the part of you that gets embarrassed is also lovely.”
His Highness’s hand that was stroking my head stretched out and combed the side of my hair and tucked it behind my ear.
My black hair, which used to be a little over my ears, was now long enough in the front to reach my chin. This was because His Highness praised me by saying, “Your black hair is very beautiful,” yet the back side was shorter because His Highness praised me again by saying, “Runa’s nape is very pretty.”
“Miss Beata likes gorgeous things and I don’t. I’m particular about quality, but I don’t like flashy appearances. To point it out, Hart is also flashy, and he also likes gorgeous things. Maybe that’s why she was attracted to Hart. Besides, I’m an unexpectedly boring man.”
“That’s not true. Your Highness is kind, and you have been really good to me. Calling you boring would just be false.”
“You’re the only one who told me that, Runa. I’m sure that I’m a terrible man.”
There was no one who would call His Highness a terrible man.
You are so kind and talented, and I heard that not only the young ladies but also men look up to you.
There were probably a lot of women who yearned for His Highness—maybe even men. I was sure that there were many.
That’s right, there’s no one that doesn’t yearn for His Highness. That’s why, those eyes that wanted to say something, I’m curious about those eyes that Miss Beata showed…
“As a result, I was rejected by Miss Beata. I think she was worried that someone like me wouldn’t accept any consorts. That’s why I think that she was happy and was welcoming Runa by giving you sweets…I’m such a pathetic man, is it okay for you even if I’m like this?
His Highness gave a weak laugh and said, “I will be in trouble if I’m not good enough.” I felt my chest tighten.
His Highness was not a pathetic man. He was the one who told someone as boring as me that I wasn’t. It was all thanks to that that I was able to change to the point of making my father happy.
I don’t think anyone would hate His Highness, including me.
“Your Highness is not a pathetic man. It’s a waste for someone like me.”
His Highness’s chest felt warm when he hugged me, it was calming. When I closed my eyes, I felt the same sweet scent.
“I wanted to apologize to you for being hurt by Hart. I wanted you to cheer up. But, I was so attracted to you that I started remembering my feelings that I had when I was twelve years old. I think that you’re the one who is wasted on me.”
“Your Highness….your words are too much.”
I heard the beating sound that His Highness’s heart was making. But I realized that mine was a little faster than his.
Why is that…hmm, this is definitely…
“…I’m glad that Hart is a fool.”
“Come, it’s already late. It’s better if we go to sleep soon.”
He separated himself from me. The newly created space between us made me feel lonely, but His Highness gave me a goodnight kiss, making a quiet kissing sound as he pecked my cheeks.
Being His Highness’s fiancé meant that I would once again receive the education for those marrying into royalty, though this time as the future Crown Consort. The title of Crown Consort still made me uneasy, but I’d already come this far, so I had to just get used to it.
Maybe it was because His Highness always said, “I want you to think of me as me and not as the Crown Prince,” but instead of “His Highness the Crown Prince’s fiancé”, “His Highness Willacliff’s fiancé” left a stronger impression on me.
And today, the tutor that would handle and His Highness Willacliff’s and my education came. It was the same person who had taught His Highness Hartward and me.
“It has been a while, milord. It is a pleasure to be able to work with you again.”
“It is my pleasure to be able to work with you as well.”
Being taught again by the same person who did so for my now-annulled engagement to His Highness Hartward gave me somewhat of a strange feeling. I wasn’t sure if he cared or not about the affairs of a student he had only met a few times, but he wore the same stoic face as before.
“Professor Reedbell is not only an expert on courtly etiquette, but he is also well-versed in our country’s history and diplomacy. It is only natural for him to be the one to instruct the Crown Consort. You might start remembering your time with Hart, but please endure it for just a little while.”
After His Highness said that, I was unable to refuse, and so, it was decided that the education for the crown consort would be taught by Professor Reedbell.
“Above all else, I’m glad to see that you haven’t forgotten how to dance.”
I was thankful to hear that I hadn’t forgotten the carefully prepared dance after two months, but it seemed like I got easily tired these days from how quickly I ran out of breath, gasping pitifully.
“Are your feet alright?”
“Yes, they’re my usual shoes so…”
When dancing with His Highness Hartward, I needed to wear women’s shoes to match my more feminine clothing. Thankfully, His Highness Willacliff said that I didn’t have to go to such lengths, so I was able to wear my usual shoes. When I first started learning how to dance, my shoes were so painful that my feet bled on a daily basis. Those memories seemed almost nostalgic now.
“Etiquette and dancing: it’s a relief that you still remember them.”
“Fortunately, I’ve always had a talent for memorizing things.”
Even though my bodily coordination was well below average, I could get the hang of most things thanks to my passion for studying and learning new things.
Having said that, I started thinking that we should proceed to the next lesson. I’d been considering it for a while, but I was unsure as to when I should bring it up, so I decided to wait and observe our lesson today first.
“Um, may I have a minute?”
“What is it?”
“I believe that I still remember most of what you have taught me before.”
“Yes, and I think that it is very excellent that you do.”
Professor Reedbell’s glasses seemed to glint in the light for a second. He looked younger than my father, with his neatly bundled golden hair, but I didn’t know his actual age.
“So, I think…it is better if we already proceed to our Crown Consort lessons, don’t you think?”
Our lesson stopped. The professor’s silence was deafening. As expected, it was still too early for me.
I couldn’t say that I was completely unprepared to become the crown consort, but I was more worried that I might not be able to memorize what I needed. I didn’t have much time between the upcoming engagement and wedding, and if I didn’t perfect the manners expected of the crown consort by then, I would shame His Highness. Feelings of anxiety started to bubble up in my chest.
It was my first time feeling this way, so perhaps I had gotten ahead of myself. I started getting nervous.
“Ah, please excuse my behavior. I just had something on my mind.”
The Professor pushed his rimless glasses up and took a long look at me.
“Sir Ernis, you have already received the education planned for the crown consort. That is why I think it will be enough for us to just check if you remember it or not.”
“The lessons that I taught you before are no different from the ones you need as Crown Consort. There are more things you will need to study, of course, but I don’t imagine that that will be a problem for you.”
I wondered what he meant by that. I thought that the instruction I received was in preparation for being His Highness Hartward’s partner. Was it also for being Crown Consort?
That explained the difficulty of the instruction, but I wondered why I was given the education intended for the crown consort.
I don’t know if he read something from my expression, but he continued talking.
“In the first place, there isn’t much of a difference between the two courses. Even if the younger prince were born first, there would always be two successors to the throne.”
If it was just in case something happened, then I could understand.
“And…it was already decided that you would eventually have to undergo the education needed for the position of Crown Consort. His Highness had already consulted me in advance.”
“Let us review diplomacy next. The books that I gave you before, do you still have them?”
“Yes, I kept all of them.”
“Then, please bring them next time. We will be studying our kingdom’s diplomatic relationships and policies from over the last ten years, so make sure to familiarize yourself with the topic in advance.”
There was something that was bothering me, but as the conversation led on, I wasn’t able to ask about it.
Thus, the education for being Crown Consort turned out to be just a review of what I had already learned, my worrying turned out to be needless anxiety, and without further delay we went on to our next lesson.
One day, when neither His Highness nor the professor were present, the tailor that His Highness arranged for arrived immediately after lunch. The tailor that came was the same one who worked on the clothes that I received from His Highness Hartward, so I felt a little awkward, but as she was a royal attendant and headed a well-known boutique, I didn’t think she would bring that topic up. Indeed, she just prepared the fabric quickly.
“Next, I will prepare a light blue-gray fabric that matches your eyes. After that, a white set of formal attire that has some purple in it, which is another design covered in embroidery. I was also told to make another set of formal clothing, so we’ll use that fabric for that.”
I had just received three ornate pieces of clothing the other day, but I was getting three more now…moreover, the second piece was going to be formalwear. I heard that she would arrange that piece in a pale red and white, but did she still need to make it?
“Um, I was informed by His Highness that the formalwear had already been prepared.”
A buxom lady who was ordering the servants — seamstresses, I supposed — answered me.
“Yes, that is correct.”
“So, what do you mean by a second set of formalwear…?”
“A few more pieces have yet to be made. I was asked to prepare them in various colors, but I haven’t received all the fabric yet, so I’ll come again soon.”
I was shocked to hear that they still needed to make more formalwear. Even though I was His Highness the Crown Prince’s fiancé, I didn’t think I needed that much formalwear, especially since most of them would just go to waste.
“I don’t think I’ll need that many.”
“We were informed that whichever version that fits you best will be chosen, so tell us every fabric that comes to mind and we will make it, if you please. And I think reworking our earlier pieces will make them look cuter. All of those clothes that you don’t need anymore will be fashioned into clothes that can be worn daily.”
That meant the number of gifts would increase by the amount of formalwear alone. Wouldn’t that just be a waste of money?
In the first place, I didn’t enjoy dressing up like young ladies did. Even if I was His Highness’s companion, as a man I didn’t think I would appear in public all that much, so I didn’t think I’d need this much royal attire.
Huh?… Can they remake it?
The presents I received from His Highness Hartward were all from the same tailor who was here today. Didn’t that mean it would be alright to just alter those ones? It would save both time and money compared to making pieces from scratch.
“Um, wouldn’t it save more time if you just alter the garments that I received from His Highness Hartward?”
The madam stopped her movements when she heard my question. She peered at me for a bit and chuckled.
“Those are words that tell me you don’t know a man’s heart. No man, commoner or noble, wants their lover to wear clothes given to them by another man. Even if those clothes were totally reworked, I can’t imagine that His Highness would like it.”
“Is that how it is?”
“Yes it is, milord.”
I didn’t quite understand what she meant by that, but if a tailor from a long-established store said it, it must be so. However, that didn’t change the fact that such extravagance would be wasted on me.
“It will take time to gather the fabric, but it is an honor to be able to work with such high-quality materials. In particular, the bridal gown will showcase all my skills as a tailor, so my seamstresses and I are looking forward to it.”
“A bridal gown?”
“You will be Crown Consort, so even though the bridal wear is for a man, we will do our best to make it into something befitting of a bride.”
That’s right, this time the bridal outfit would be tailored without any frills and ruffles. With His Highness Hartward, there always was a feminine element included to the point where just thinking about wearing those clothes gave me a headache.
Perhaps it was because he knew how I felt, but His Highness Willacliff decided to make the bridal raiments more suited to a man. When I remembered his tender face when he said, “Your beauty shines through no matter what you wear,” it still made my heart flutter.
“And since the fabric has already been decided a long time ago, it will arrive on time even if it has to be imported.”
What did she mean by a long time ago?
“Come, the only thing left is the shoes. I’ll have them brought to you by a shoemaker that I’ve worked with for a long time, so all we need to do is match the molding and leather.”
“Huh? Um, do even the shoes need to be tailored?”
“Of course, milord. I was told by His Highness that he wanted the shoes to match the rest of the set.”
I looked at the fabric draped over me. I bet that the leather used for the shoes would be as expensive as the fabric. This was really shaping up to be a waste of money…
After that, I told His Highness that I wouldn’t be needing any more clothes and shoes, but he said, “Can’t I also look forward to this?”, and once again I found myself unable to refuse him.